Hey, so I just posted last night some of the first photographs I have taken in over a year! and guess what? People loved them! I am definitely feeling the love, and I just wanted to tell you all that I am very appreciative and grateful and all lovey dovey about how much you guys liked my work!

So, this is a very profound and very large and filled with love THANK YOU!

Many kisses!

V

Hey, So I totally started writing again, and it is definately not the essay on rape culture, like it should be... but I just posted it, my first post in... well, lets just say a very long time. I really hope you like it, lately people have been looking at my stuff, and I hope it stays that way! I go all girly inside when I see that someone has commented on my work, It's kind of like "Oh, you liked that enough to expend energy in commenting? Holy Crap! You're amazing for liking me that much!" ... I know... I get carried away.

But hey, if you like nature, and sexy relationship stuff, what I just posted is a quick read (It's like a paragraph, I swear) and it makes me happy... mucho

Anyway, I would also like to wish all a happy Samhainn and Yule, and stuff... because it's great and Samhainn is fun because you get to dress up, and Yule is great because you have a great excuse to give out pressies and receive them, and you get to laze around by a fire and stuff your face with a feast... and you get to do banishing magic! (not something I condone doing with a sore heart!!!)

K. well. Read my Leaf God and Soil Goddess thing... YOu will like it! OR not... but try it out anyway, you never know right? It's like sex, you don't know how great it is until you try it!

... All my love
Val

I'm feeling a little odd tonight, so I thought I would just put down my thoughts and see where they are going. So, the first thing that I have been thinking is how wonderful it would be if I could truly be the woman from my stories, the one that exists in my imagination. And If I where her, I would wish that all that happens to her, would happen to me. I want to be that wild woman from the wood, who converses with Pan, and falls in love with a incredibly clean man from the city. I would want to be the woman who goes to Scotland and fall in love, only after becoming incredibly well known for the novels and discoveries that she has come up with and found. I guess that I could be that woman, but I'm afraid that my life will consist of wonders I do not see because I am too busy dreaming up new ones, or that my life will be wholly ordinary.... I want magic, I dream of love, and I sincerely hope that when you continue to dream, they will come true, and that that which is thought of enough will manifest in the Universe. (That's why prayer works right? ,,, I think so...). I'm going to do my best not to be afraid, and I hope that in doing so I will be able to put myself in the position to receive my dreams... I guess the first step is Scotland... (I'll get to Pan later).

I guess what I want you all to know, it that I want all of you to never stop believing and dreaming, and I want you to wish and hope and know that it all manifests.... no matter what!

Ahh.... ok, well, I love you, and lets hope that this new chapter of mine is going to be a magnificent lead into the climax, eh? (and lets pray for a little magic)

i put on lipstick and I automatically come up with the excuse "I'm not dressing up for you, I'm dressing up for fun"
I shave my legs and I start to feel like I have betrayed myself
I put on earrings and I feel butterflies. Should I call it off?
I put on some slacks, that will show that I'm not a fucking weakling, I know what I'm doing
I practice my speech for turning him down, "I don't feel like that, I just want to be your friend" when I really want to say
"YOu're too fucking nice, and you agree too much. I feel like a total bitch when I'm around you"
I don't know when to break it to him
At dinner?
During the show?
When he drives me home?
Or should I just call him later and gargle it out to him and abruptly hang up, like the coward I am?
I fuck up my eyebrows, the hair is standing on end like drunken trees, I feel uglier, better.
I look at my curvy self in the mirror, should I put something on that's baggier (Uglier)? ... Maybe...
Well, It's time... maybe I'll throw up to save myself... to hurt myself...

I sigh... try to breath
and go on my date

(Val has a thing tonight, guys... she doesn't know if it's a date, but she hopes not... because she doesn't want to hurt him.)

I'm just writing to tell anyone who it interested that I am feeling very nerdy right now and I also feel neverendingly loved. So many people are looking at my gallery and LIKING it!!! Woo! I think that deserves a very long and exerting happy dance. *Dances*

ALSO! I would like to thank everything I have ever taken photos of for being to cooperative and showing me their good side.

K. I'm off to plan my next photo shoot. I need a girl who looks neverendingly nerdy... I want a SEXY NERD! I think it will be quite fun, what I have in mind.

*evil grin* hehehe